Today was one of those days. The kind where the kids won’t nap and your internet is slow. I was running around trying to get my house cleaned up, cook dinner, and hold my crying baby, when my phone beeped with an alert… I looked down to see a very simple question,
“Have you spent time with God today?”
I stopped what i was doing and thought about how much time I had spent on everything else. If I’m honest, I also thought about how i was 99% sure that I kept all notifications from apps TURNED OFF (I guess I’ll have to check that one)… anyway the answer was ‘no.’ I hadn’t spent time with God and what’s worse is that the answer has been ‘no’ for awhile.
Lately, my relationship with Jesus has felt like the kind I have with many of my really dear friends… they know I love them and would do anything for them… even if we don’t always spend time together. When we do get together, we can always pick up right where we left off. As reassuring as that feeling is, it often points the way to a lack of growth, companionship, and devotion. And man do I need those things right now. My intent wasn’t to become a preachy sap about how I need to be a better follower of Jesus, it’s just that I feel the need to explain that God was reaching out to me (by means of a phone because he gets me) to be with HIM.
So I stopped everything I was doing and dropped to my knees in prayer. Just kidding, I wish I would have done that!!! At that moment, I was doing a pretty good job making a yummy recipe from my Traeger Girl with ONE hand while also getting Levi to stop crying by twirling him around (pure talent). But it came to me that I could very simply ask God to be with me in that moment. I could ask Him to calm my heart or thank Him for the blessing of food for my family. So I did. And my day changed. I was happier, Levi stopped crying, and Isla helped me with dishes. We had friends over and I felt God’s presence in all of it.
You see, I have been going about this home build all wrong. I have made my list of things to get done and plugged away at them because that is how these things work. You hustle and hustle and hustle and hope that by the end of it you and your family are intact enough to thank God for it all. But I have been missing the point… God has had His hand in all this from the beginning and what He asks in return is to trust and to follow Him. That means in every decision, conversation, email, and work. We are blessed with the opportunity to build a home, no matter what bumps in the road have occurred, and we are going to make sure that glory is given to God. So maybe I’ll turn my notifications on this time... and start listening.
“Command them to do good, to be rich in good deeds, and to be generous and willing to share. In this way they will lay up treasure for themselves as a firm foundation for the coming age, so that they may take hold of the life that is truly life.” 1 Timothy 6: 17-19